Dear God,
I was reflecting while ironing Cookie’s shirts and remembered that whenever I've submit my prayers in writing, You've always come through. It's been well over 7 years since I've done this, so I'm pretty excited to see You manifest my requests! Before I ask for anything, I want to give You thanks for everything You have blessed me with since the last time I wrote to You! Since my last letter, You've relinquished my ex-partner’s drug slash alcohol addictions, blessed him with a seemingly solid relationship, and have granted him the greatest honour of all, fatherhood.
I mention these, as they were the content of my last letter! So much has happened since then improving my quality of life; the most significant of these, a revelation of Your Grace. Alongside - of course, the most amazing and supportive husband I could have ever asked for. My sweet Cookie, who joyfully tolerates, and even embraces my childish antics and emotional codependency, whilst believing in me and encouraging me in all that I (set to) do.
I was reflecting while ironing Cookie’s shirts and remembered that whenever I've submit my prayers in writing, You've always come through. It's been well over 7 years since I've done this, so I'm pretty excited to see You manifest my requests! Before I ask for anything, I want to give You thanks for everything You have blessed me with since the last time I wrote to You! Since my last letter, You've relinquished my ex-partner’s drug slash alcohol addictions, blessed him with a seemingly solid relationship, and have granted him the greatest honour of all, fatherhood.
I mention these, as they were the content of my last letter! So much has happened since then improving my quality of life; the most significant of these, a revelation of Your Grace. Alongside - of course, the most amazing and supportive husband I could have ever asked for. My sweet Cookie, who joyfully tolerates, and even embraces my childish antics and emotional codependency, whilst believing in me and encouraging me in all that I (set to) do.
The end of this week marks our 4th wedding anniversary and for that I am extremely grateful. In length our relationship has surpassed my previous two fold, in depth - fifty fold! That said, no relationship is perfect and as of late, we've hit a bit of a rough patch. Which brings me to request number one:
I pray that you would teach me to be humble and take negative feedback constructively
While over the years we've both witnessed much improvement in this area, I still think I need to be strengthened more in this area. I won't lie, I was originally going to ask if You would cause him to be less fussy - however, since the role of the wife in a Christian relationship is to be submissive, and since Cookie means well in his critique, maybe the onus of the recent conflict ought to rest with me, not him.
A second semi marriage related issue is my laziness - I’m such a sloth so...
I pray that You would grant me the wisdom to be less lazy, more dutiful, and more disciplined
Ideally I would like to spend the start of my day meditating on Your word, Eat a good breakfast with cookie and cleaning.
This followed by a productive day of uni work and ending with me cooking my hubby and I healthy dinners. I realise its unrealistic but I would also like to incorporate jogging at least 3 times a week! I think if You could improve these things in my life, then maybe I would be a better wife and that would alleviate a lot of our arguments.
I pray that you would stop my hips from growing any bigger
I just measured my hips and they are 36” which is INSANE. I don’t feel that my body is in proportion anymore and it’s really affecting my confidence. I want to embrace the curviness, so rather than pray to be a twig again, I pray You would cause my ribcage and shoulders to grow bigger, at least to a point where they seem more in proportion. I’d be happy with 34” 24” 35”
In addition to that, my skin has been bothering me too. While it has been improving, it has been getting me down recently. You know the story there and I pray that you would somehow fix this and restore my youth like the eagles :)
I just measured my hips and they are 36” which is INSANE. I don’t feel that my body is in proportion anymore and it’s really affecting my confidence. I want to embrace the curviness, so rather than pray to be a twig again, I pray You would cause my ribcage and shoulders to grow bigger, at least to a point where they seem more in proportion. I’d be happy with 34” 24” 35”
In addition to that, my skin has been bothering me too. While it has been improving, it has been getting me down recently. You know the story there and I pray that you would somehow fix this and restore my youth like the eagles :)
That is all for now.
ILY (f)
ILY (f)
Jessie xo
Wednesday, 19/ September/ 2012,
3:12 am
